If you’re meant to have someone or something in this lifetime, you will, just trust in that.
Anonymous asked: How do I truly get to know myself? When I think about "being myself" I feel like I don't even know anymore bc I act so different depending on who I'm with.
Prioritize daily self observation and documentation in regards to your behavior and thought process. Maintain an analytical disposition as the backdrop to all experience, perceiving patterns, recognizing correlations, testing theories based on phenomena perceived and anticipated. This will reveal the fundamental components of the human psyche as well as general cosmic phenomena, microcosm and macrocosm, through understanding the universe we understand ourselves.
Disregard repression in favor of adherence to your biological awareness, innate compulsions that allude to the cosmic priority in self/co-empowerment.
We are all scientists, our contentment found in the ability to embrace our innate curiosity and critical thinking, rather than retract out of fear or self destruct in denial. Through carefully balancing growth between will and awareness, we progress in subtle increments.
I’ve stopped being sorry for all my soft. I won’t apologize because I miss you, or because I said it, or because I text you first, or again. I think everyone spends too much time trying to close themselves off. I don’t want to be cool or indifferent, I want to be honest.
Anonymous asked: you are so great and genuine! what do you love?
I love when people are passionate and I love talking to positive people and deep conversations and individuality and kissing and ear biting and traveling and fucking nyc and clothes and dance and big cities and good food and long car rides with the music turned all the way up and windows down and hair flying everywhere and new journals and cool friends and new camera lenses and dark lipstick and airports and the 90s and freedom!!! And huge run on sentences!! That is not all but a decent start
you know the friendship’s real when there’s a rumour you’re gay for each other
I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.
I want morning kisses, slaps on the butt, pinky holding, and hugs from behind. I want to make you coffee at 7am and sit with you at the kitchen table with the sun shining in on us. You can see dust particles and it is just beautiful. Just like your green eyes that light up any room, especially my smile. I want to walk around the house in my undies and a big t-shirt with you like it’s is the new fashion trend. I want to cuddle on the couch on a Saturday morning while watching the Golden Girls because it’s a classic. I want to go to a little cafe for lunch with you and try new foods and take pictures of us trying them. I want to run in the rain to get the car for you so that you don’t have to get wet. I want to make out with you from the car to the bedroom when we arrive home and take off every item of your clothing and feel your skin on mine. I want you to walk in on me while I am taking a shower and let me walk in on you while you’re using the bathroom and it be completely comfortable. I want to wash your hair for you and you wash my back. I want to sing in front of you, with you, and to you. I want to buy a kitten with you and let you kiss my cat scratches. I want you to help me cook even though you aren’t the best at it.I want to marry you and have our guests throw rose petals as we walk out of the church. I want our families to be one giant family. I want to raise a child with you and watch him or her grow and be the best they can be. I want to grow old with you and be able to tell our grandchildren all the amazing things we did when we were teenagers. I want to wipe your nose when you’re sick and bring you chocolate when you want something sweet. I want to bring you flowers for no special reason and take you out on a Wednesday evening when nothing else is going on. I want to be a part of you every single day for the rest of my life. I want to hold you and love you. I want you. I will never stop wanting you. I love you.